People close to me and those who I have only been recently acquainted to all can see that I am a loud, outgoing, and open person.
It’s also obvious that there isn’t a day that goes by, that I’m not working towards, or for something more than what I currently have.
Sometimes you just want to take an opportunity to step back to breathe, to relax and to do absolutely nothing. But my parent’s aren’t eating well enough or are comfortable enough for me to stop working. For me to stop grinding and worry about the little things.
Some people are in our lives for short periods of time, some longer, but they all impact us in one way or another. Learning from bad experiences and decisions, as well as fostering better ones with those successes that we have had are extremely critical to us growing.
I’ve always thought about the trust/paper analogy. if ever you crease, crush or alter a piece of paper, it’ll never be the same as it was when you first got it. And after it’s been altered, there’s nothing else you can do because all you want is that perfect piece of paper again. But what if that paper’s purpose wasn’t to be perfect flat and uncreased?
To take what you have, and move on with it, to make it a positive is what is key to being successful, to building, fostering and maintaining relationships.
These rants never really have an ending… sometimes its just that, a rant, a vent - I just ain’t got no one to listen to me and you know, that’s okay. Because I know why I’m here and why I do what I do.
Come and succeed with me, walk with me, or look up at me when I’m at the top. Either way I’m getting there.
Fuck it. Just fuck it.
remember why you started, then tell failure to fuck off and then proceed to succeed.
Hard days, hard nights, hard times come now and then…
it’s how we approach them and recognize that they’re not forever that will get us through the tough patch.
I have no one I can rely on but myself and I need to stay strong to support myself. This is how I feel now, how I’ve felt before, and the only constant in my life that I will always be able to count on myself.
You forget what people say and what they do, but you never forget how someone makes you feel. - Maya Angelou
I wanna not feel so lost again…
I gave up my motorcycle, race car, and photography to come to Corvallis and get my degree.
I sold everything I loved doing for the greater good of knowing I needed my education.
in 2 months, I graduate. so even though I was able to save and buy new toys, it was well worth giving up to begin with.
- student: hey government can I have some money to go to university
- uk government: sure here you go. you'll have to pay it back but only when you're earning £21,000+ a year, and if you don't pay it off after 30 years we'll just write it off, don't worry about it man
- scottish government: nah man just go to uni we ain't gonna charge you
- us government: no. you gotta pay it yourself. upfront. your parents have to save up from the moment you're born. good luck, fucker.