Hakuna Matata

Steven Phan. 1. I take pictures 2. I love music. 3. I love meeting new people. 4. Grindin til I'm tired

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Not just to be heard, to be understood

People close to me and those who I have only been recently acquainted to all can see that I am a loud, outgoing, and open person. 

It’s also obvious that there isn’t a day that goes by, that I’m not working towards, or for something more than what I currently have. 

Sometimes you just want to take an opportunity to step back to breathe, to relax and to do absolutely nothing. But my parent’s aren’t eating well enough or are comfortable enough for me to stop working. For me to stop grinding and worry about the little things. 

Some people are in our lives for short periods of time, some longer, but they all impact us in one way or another. Learning from bad experiences and decisions, as well as fostering better ones with those successes that we have had are extremely critical to us growing.

I’ve always thought about the trust/paper analogy. if ever you crease, crush or alter a piece of paper, it’ll never be the same as it was when you first got it. And after it’s been altered, there’s nothing else you can do because all you want is that perfect piece of paper again. But what if that paper’s purpose wasn’t to be perfect flat and uncreased? 

To take what you have, and move on with it, to make it a positive is what is key to being successful, to building, fostering and maintaining relationships.   

These rants never really have an ending… sometimes its just that, a rant, a vent - I just ain’t got no one to listen to me and you know, that’s okay. Because I know why I’m here and why I do what I do. 

Come and succeed with me, walk with me, or look up at me when I’m at the top. Either way I’m getting there. 

Fuck it. Just fuck it. 

Since 2009, I’ve taken it upon myself to try and supply a classroom with as much as I could afford to donate to help out that teacher. General supplies and stuff you know? I usually just go to target once or twice in August and then drop off the supplies at a school I’m familiar with or a teacher I know. 

This year I started in May. I began just spending $20 here or there and grabbing stuff and collecting it slowly. I normally throw a Facebook message up asking for donations and stuff with little to no avail but it’s whatever. This year since I was doing it much earlier, I was able to bug a couple friends, get a ten here, twenty there, and it all added up pretty quick. 

The top photo shows me with a special education teacher at target. I was picking out glue, asked her if she thought the brand name was worth the extra 35 cents each and she said yes. I asked why I should believe her (lol) and she said because she’s been a teacher for 20 years. I took everything in her cart that she was buying for her classroom, and gave her everything I was going to buy to donate anyway. Homegirl nearly cried. 

The second photo also happens to be me with another special ed teacher, except miss miller here teaches middle school as opposed to elementary. She expressed concerns about her kids getting sick and when I asked her if she could have a wish list of items what would be on top, she said things to keep the kids healthy. Clorox wipes, tissues, hand sanitizer, stuff like that…. I was able to stock her up with all that and more through donations, contributions and a little of my own cash. 

I’m not rich, I have bills, student debt, credit card bills and rent to pay for, but so do these teachers. They use their own hard earned money to help kids succeed and grow. I figure imma be working the rest of my life, what’s a couple hundred bucks once a year to me when it’s going to not only help out that teacher, but also a couple classrooms.

I have 4 more classrooms to visit in the Portland area in the next two weeks. If anyone wants to donate, or just show support, please feel free to hit me up. It’s a little money, a little time, but makes a big difference! 

In the end…

Hard days, hard nights, hard times come now and then…

it’s how we approach them and recognize that they’re not forever that will get us through the tough patch.

I have no one I can rely on but myself and I need to stay strong to support myself. This is how I feel now, how I’ve felt before, and the only constant in my life that I will always be able to count on myself. 

You forget what people say and what they do, but you never forget how someone makes you feel.  - Maya Angelou 

I wanna not feel so lost again… 

So this happened last week…. 

Not much to say besides thank you to everyone that’s been a part of my journey. 

I thank you for lessons I’ve learned from those that were and that still choose to be a part of my life. 

Wait till you see what’s next… 

2 years ago

I gave up my motorcycle, race car, and photography to come to Corvallis and get my degree. 

I sold everything I loved doing for the greater good of knowing I needed my education. 

in 2 months, I graduate. so even though I was able to save and buy new toys, it was well worth giving up to begin with.

#Longtermgratification  

  • student: hey government can I have some money to go to university
  • uk government: sure here you go. you'll have to pay it back but only when you're earning £21,000+ a year, and if you don't pay it off after 30 years we'll just write it off, don't worry about it man
  • scottish government: nah man just go to uni we ain't gonna charge you
  • us government: no. you gotta pay it yourself. upfront. your parents have to save up from the moment you're born. good luck, fucker.