When people avoid me…honestly, it still makes me sad…
Midterm in the morning means late nights studying…
Which means late nights procrastinating on social networks…
Which means going through old pictures, old messages, old memories…
I realized I’ve lost so many people in the past few years due to mistakes, due to dumb decisions, and due to some things that were beyond my control.
Thankful for all the memories, and lessons learned, hurt due to losses that could have been more, but excited for whats to come.
Grindin on the daily - School, work, family, and my own stresses
I make money, I buy things to try and enjoy my free time, and I never end up having any time to do things for myself.
Thousands in Camera gear, multiple guns, my motorcycle and when I look at every dollar spent, I haven’t even had the opportunity to do any of these thing I love and enjoy doing.
Somethings gotta change, I’m burning out. But till that something changes, I grind on.
I often think about what it’d be like to speak openly with a stranger. Just be able to tell them everything. Being able to speak my mind, my secrets aloud, my innermost feelings - to not be judged or questioned - to just think out loud for a little bit, or a lotta bit - a few minutes, a few hours, whatever.
It’d be nice to be able to let loose.
back in reality, its a good thing I’m a dude so I’m able bottle everything up really well and it’s socially acceptable :)